I choose to keep moving forward even though I am not 100% sure what my goals are.
It’s been about five months now since the last time I ran. After taking a bit of a break, I stated working out at a local boot camp style gym 5-6 days a week. I keep wondering when I will miss running. So far I only miss the people that I don’t see now that I am not meeting up to train or race.
I have created some new relationships, I have strengthened some, and I have released some. The most surprising relationship change I have had is the one with myself. Now that I am not spending hours and hours running, I have started processing new things about myself and discovered new journeys. The transition has not been an easy one. The analyzer in me has questioned just about every step and every thought. I have learned so much along the way. There are amazing people in my life that have carried, encouraged, loved, scolded, nurtured, and called me out during this transition. I am grateful for all of it.
My mind is different. My habits are different. My body is different. I would not change the journey I was on for so many years. But now, I choose to keep moving forward on this new journey. I am not sure what my goals are yet. Some days the work is really tough, and I want to give up. Yet, I am reminded often that this transition is worth it.